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[Apr. 3rd, 2004|01:16 pm] |
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| |  thoughtful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nirvana-all apologies | ] |
ok so last night i could have chosen between like 2837 things to do
actually 3 but still
so me being the highly intelligent person that i am decided to go out with my 82974 friends out of whom i can stand about 3
so first i went and got a really bad haircut which im going to have to spend my whole weekend trying to fix
and then it was off to the mall for what promised to be quite a fun-filled night
and oh was it ever
i mean
after riding up and down the escalators, learning some church history and proclaiming everything gay
i just didnt see how it could get any better
but of course it did...as it always does when i am out with these people
after escaping their clutches through a crazy combination of armytwirls and shoetying me and lauren and teirnan went to go see an amazing movie
and lucky for me
my math class was like reincarnated in the people sitting behind me
and trust me
while the math class has taught us some valuable lessons--animal noises are out and throwing paper balls is making a comeback
they are nothing compared to what teirnan and i learned from the row behind us at the movie
jews and crippled people are funny and it is necessary to vigorously kick the chair in front of you any time they appear onscreen
however koreans and mimes are not funny
and when they should appear in the movie we should stop paying attention and start changing our seating arrangements
thank god for those people
i dont know what i would have done going a whole weekend without the othersideoftheroom keeping me uptodate on the latest trends in humor
it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside to know there are other people like them in the world |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 26th, 2004|06:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | dexy's midnight runners-come on eileen | ] |
ok so its been like 832492 days since i updated
i was going for a whole month but since i have nothing to do...yeah
anyway i dont think anything actually happened in the last month
except for the allman brothers concert maybe counts a little
i went with my dad and my only friend and her dad and it was nifty trailertrash fun
first me and lauren sat in my lucky seats with the mulletheads who were very pleasant
they showed up more wasted than anyone i have ever seen before and then proceeded to go through 328479 joints in one hour
actually it was like 5 but still
so there was a little threesome going on to keep us entertained...although we never quite figured out who was with who
and the deformedman was always there to remind us exactly which band we were watching
deformed man:*makes out with mullethead* ALLMAN BROTHERRRRRRS *resumes jimmyfallon-esque makeout*
then there was intermission where approximately 3878 westcoastchoppers men grabbed my ass
then we went to sit with out padres and it proved to be a good deal more interesting over there
first there was bigtallman who wouldnt sit down
so the whole section is all "SIT THE FUCK DOWN" and throwing bottles at him
and hes all like "BRING IT ON BABY"
and im just like ::smiley happy:: at least i can see
then bigtallman decides to get back at us in the most obvious way...which is of course to dump a beer on the closest thing to sober at the whole show
that was me
so im all like ewww and lauren helped me out by pouring the rest on me and the guy next to us was all ::jumping out of seat:: WHAT THE FUCK
and then the massapequaboys behind us go down to bigtallman and start a little brawl and the mexican security guard came over to kick them out
so then it got a little blurred
but i vaguely recall my dad screaming at big tall man because him in his lawyer outfit was still less of a pussy than all the mulletheads
and me flipping out in the security guards face and almost getting kicked out
i thought of explaining to him that i was a fellow mexican but then no i didnt
after that it was quite boring except the cage dancer next to me and the seizure man in front of me
but that was all swell because i felt so proud of my straightedgeness...drinking some water hardcore
anyway so i was dead for the rest of the week after that
but my whole passive-aggressive thing kept going as displayed by various outbursts in global and at the ticketsellers for the molloyconcert
but then today was supposed to be my smart day and that didnt quite work out
jill: theres something in my shoe
sarah: ONE TWO BUCKLE MY SHOE
jill: *trips sarah*
sarah: *falls into decorative planter*
steven: THREE FOUR KICK THE WHORE
and then there was the like 82374 times in global where i got singled out
me: so i decided to be smart today
desarno: ha! good one!
me: *starts babbling incoherently*
desarno: I CANT HEAR YOU WITH THE GUM IN YOUR MOUTH
me: *turns around and crashes into that guy we always clap for*
desarno: WHOAAAAAAAA
me: im just gonna sit down now
and then 5 minutes later
desarno: *asks some peasant question*...sarah?
me: um...im not raising my hand
desarno: well you said you were gonna be smart today...so come on
me: *starts arguing about mountains*
desarno: WHY ARE YOU ARGUING? nevermind *calls on someone else*
and then halfway through their answer
"are you mad now? no i was just kidding. im sure you're smart. turn that frown upside down"
what a small fortune cookie that man is
anyway yeah so the concert and my unsuccessful smart day pretty much sums up my month
i know
no wonder i couldnt find the time to update
psht
im just nifty like that |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 29th, 2004|05:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the beatles-tell me why | ] |
ok i havent updated in a while
because i am a lazy failure
one who never does anything productive with her sorry life
although not to make excuses
but part of it might be the fact that i dont have a screen name anymore
yeah i just go to sign on one day and its not there
it turns out that daddy has deleted it
not because hes angry
of course not
because he cares about me
oh well
at least he isnt burning the furniture
although i wouldnt mind if he cooked one of the cats at this point
theres about 23472 of them
we could spare one for the death.horror.screams.blood
anyway i had an extremely productive grounding weekend
i have discovered that most movies i like fall into the 80s/molly ringwald/john cusack-esque genre which i have recently created
and then i sometimes like movies about stupid people because i might actually understand the jokes and i can look at someone else and go
"wow they are stupid"
yeah anyway besides 80smovies and stupidmovies i usually hate everything
but every once in awhile a movie comes along that i just cant stop watching
and it can be from the 90s and be about smart people and i still love it
and jerry maguire is one of those movies
whenever that movie is on tv i have to watch it
its like im ocd
like that queereye guy
it can come on like 283 nights in a row
and i have to watch it every night
i dont know what it is
maybe theres subliminal messages that only i see
because no one else likes it
and no one else ever watches it with me
anyway
if anyone can explain this phenonmenon to me
just holla back at me yo
malverne REPRESENT
no not west coast...unless you flip it over
which you best not be doing |
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| my eye |
[Feb. 19th, 2004|11:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | twitchy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the vapors-turning japanese | ] |
my hitlerparkinson's disease is spreading
to my eye
it started twitching like a little rabbit or something right before vacation
and it never quite stopped
it goes in intervals
like "ohh you're talking to hotguy?
ill start twitching"
and then "ohh you're trying to show me to people so they dont think you're crazy/stupid/jdfhfdi?
ill desist in my twitching"
what a meany
im gonna wind up like caitie and hitler rolled into one
and no one helps me find the source of this
i have gotten like 832429 "its stress" responses
yeah
its vacation week and sleep week and meet queereye week
so no
i think if im twitchystressed this week then there really is something wrong with me
possibly something that goes beyond parkinson's disease
and then i tried asking my mom
she said "work harder"
shes quite a madre
oh wow ::LIGHTBULB::
this eye is my QUEER EYE
(not gay queer b.c im not cool enough to be a gayguy...just like strange queer)
wowie i figured it out
i should get to special meet them
this nazi eye can come in handy |
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| i.hate.lj |
[Feb. 18th, 2004|11:22 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | husker du-sheena is a punk rocker | ] |
i just wrote a whole nice entry about my queer day and my cute hair and my subway expedition and my footballnonskills
and then i lost it because i wanted to make the ending in big letters
also because im not an intelligent person at this point
example:
subway station: ::starts talking::
me: ahhhhhh ::scared face::
::collective laughter at sarah being sarah::
me: i wonder what that said?
i found out a bit later when the e train metamorphasized into a f train
anyway im not retyping that whole entryish thing
because everyone will just go OH SARAHSTORY and start laughing when its supposed to be the sad part
and my entrying will have been a waste
so this is the important highlights of my queer day:
no you know what im not typing that whole thing
if i didnt already exaggerate it 8327 times for you then i will be glad to'
the basic plot is thom and jai liked my hair and then i fell in love with multiple gay guys all in one day
the end
see thats what you get for making my hardworkedfor entry disappear
AND THEN IT EXPLODED
(that was the ending that i tried to write bigly and wound up erasing the entry instead)
(im sure it was worth it) |
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| i.love.debra.schlatzkavitz.more.than.you |
[Feb. 13th, 2004|10:03 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | bonnie tyler-total eclipse of the heart and starship-sara | ] |
Graniti - Sušec d.o.o. - Stranica sadrži uzorke prirodnog kamena, mramora i granita, zajedno s autokartom do skladišta i kontaktnim informacijama.
Industrogradnja d.d. - Mješovito dioničko društvo u sklopu kojeg se obavljaju djelatnosti konzaltinga, marketinga, inženjeringa i projektiranja, graditeljstva (visokogradnja, niskogradnja), proizvodnja građevnog materijala, proizvodnja drvene i plastične stolarije.
Institut građevinarstva hrvatske - Nacionalna institucija za istraživanja, ispitivanja, praćenja i analize kvalitete građevinskih materijala, proizvoda, tehnologija građenja i konstrukcija. Projektiranje, nadzor i vođenje projekata izgradnje.
Izometal - Proizvodnja i montaža metalnih i inox konstrukcija. O tvrtki, gdje se nalazi, proizvodni program, urbana oprema, zaštita od buke i reference.
i love uvjeti kori?tenja |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 10th, 2004|05:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | thursday-this song brought to you by a falling bomb | ] |
it took me like 459823 hours to get online today
seriously...i had to restart my computer and fun stuff like that
and then after about 1.6 minutes of being online
i realized that no one was going to talk to me anyway
i always used to joke around about how i have like one friend
but im totally realizing that its true
most of the people that i ever hang out with at all only like me because they get to laugh at me whenever i say stupid stuff
which is a lot
but they always go out and do lovely stuff together
and they never tell me about it
and they get pissed when im like
"oh...i would have gone too"
i just hate how i have absolutely no one who gives a shit
and i have no one who will actually listen to me talk without telling me that im suicidal
and i have no one who i can tell about my problems without having them get sick of me being so negative all the time
and i have no one who cares that i hate so much about my life instead of just telling me how cynical i am
i have exactly one friend who i can talk to when i want to and who hangs out with me and who actually pretends to like me
the problem is i cant hang out with one person all the time
because pretty soon they'll get sick of me just like everyone else does
not to mention that im already completely sick of all their other friends
but i have to hang out with them anyway because i dont really have that many choices
sometimes when i hang out with these people i feel like im suffocating and i just want to die or sit in a corner and be emo
and i feel like im drowning in an endless sea of petty arguements and matchmaking for people who cant find anyone on their own
i would rather be home doing nothing
but i cant do that
because i have to pretend to like these people
because theres not that many other options for someone with one friend
so i just do the same thing every weekend
lets go to the mall or go to someones house and get in stupid arguments with each other over stuff we know wont matter
because we're too immature to deal with whats actually pissing us off
so we fake smiles and waste money on boredom away from our houses and then go home and im each other urgently...."did you have fun tonight?"
like we need each other's permission to have emotions
and then i go home and look at all my other friends' ljs and read about what fun they had this weekend with each other
and they all have happyjoy smileys for their moods
and they wonder why i never have happy ones
its because i cant write entry after entry about what fun i had this weekend
because it barely ever happens since everyone is so busy having fun with each other and not calling the cynical girl
and when i do have fun
i know it wont last
so theres no point in pretending
but dont worry...ill be faking smiles again by tomorrow |
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| i.swear.im.not.that.stupid |
[Feb. 4th, 2004|10:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  melancholy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | taking back sunday-timberwolves at new jersey | ] |
yeah so school
here's an example of how my day went
of how my day always goes:
Ms. Young: 3x5, anyone?
Me: 6
Everyone in the class: ::turn around real fast and stare::
Ms. Young: did someone just say 6?
Laura: SARAH DID!
Me: umm...i didnt mean it...i was just kidding
Everyone in the class: ::laughs at the stupid girl in the back::
i seriously didnt mean to say that
i sort of wish i wasnt so stupid all the time
but at least some people mistake it for me just trying to be funny
...which is totally what im usually trying to do
i swear
im not stupid at all
i just really enjoy entertaining you guys |
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| psht |
[Feb. 2nd, 2004|05:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | death cab for cutie-president of what? | ] |
wow today school was not too nifty
but the weekend sure was
ok so im totally dreading this whole drama trip since theres like 3 people who i can stand going
also because the bus is quite miniature
but then whoa
it turned out to be such a dandy weekend that i was almost sad when my stupid madre came to pick me up
but not too sad since everyone else was gone and it was just me and the snow so i was a little glad to see her
anyway...
let me sum up my weekend with the only things that matter
-tadpat was gorgeous and i miss his face
but thats ok
b.c the next time brand new is touring with the ninja turtles...whoa...just watch out tadpat...me and jaimie are gonna find you
-my tmnt shirt was so much more popular than me and i made 823723467 friends with it...or something like that
-the people turned out to be from islip...not iceland like i thought
-the fuckingawesomelywild teen center....just whoa
-bacci ball with that paulchildwiththeguitar
-i love tadpat
-andi's bf has 4 fingers which i think is fucking spiffy
-the RAPP dance ::whitemanvoice:: nigger please
-all the guys were beautiful except maybe for my stalker
-there werent enough beds
-me and antonio were from manhattan until people started making fun of longisland
-vending machines and arcade car racers are mean
-so are short people who yell at you in swing dancing and then introduce you to stalkers
-can i eat your cherry?? because i dont like nuts
yeah thats all that happened importantly
then today school took all my happy dramaramaness and put it really far away
i couldnt talk to anyone b.c i had to read 5 chapters in lotf
so i felt like i had no friends
but first i had to fail my esci test
then i got to skip lunch and sit in the bathroom reading lotf which i didnt even come close to finishing anyway
not that it mattered....i love vellucci and his easy quizzes that i pass
also i was informed that my clips were illegal
which made me feel like such a terrible person who is heading straight to stanner hell what with all my clips that im sure have been harming and insulting people for quite some time now
but it was all ok in math where i caused controversy by having a famously groundhog town and i smartly knew why they used b instead of x and i was too violent
but who got to keep their seat??
yeah thats what i thought
i miss all the emo hair guys |
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| its cold outside |
[Jan. 26th, 2004|05:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | taking back sunday-you're so last summer | ] |
i am so fucking sick of school and going home from school and all that notverydandy stuff
and i understand that people think you should stay after school all the time doing fun activities like stepsquad and science olympiad and make some wonderful friends for life and then you can be swell and shit
but after today i remembered why i just want to go straight home from school and go in my room and sleep forever
i attempted to go to math extra help after school so i could learn about numbers that dont exist and all the nifty formulas involving them
however
i was obviously the only one who was there who actually is not in possession of an iq of 83472938
stupid me goes actually expecting to learn something but i have discovered that isnt the reason to go to math extra help
math extra help is a place for very smart and extraordinarily intellingent people to go and hang out and socialize and make fun of the lesser beings around them
um no
thats what math class is for
math extra help is where you ask a lot of questions and someone with a sweater answers you while ms young looks in the answer key which is quite often wrong
but not today
no one helped me today except guy who happens to be my new best friend
i am going to schedule a playdate after school with him every week and we can learn about determinant theorems and how to graph quadratics and it will be more fun than you could ever hope to have
so anyway i leave stanner high and i get on a train going to wantagh that i sort of hope stops somewhere near me
which it sort of does except i miss the bus because you cant run too fast when your legs are numb
so i wait approximately 8937429 minutes for the next one which decides not to come and i dont get home until a very late time
what a niftyful day it was indeed
my fingers are blue-green and they dont like typing all that much |
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| fun days on the subways |
[Jan. 24th, 2004|01:00 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lethargic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | brand new-seventy times 7 | ] |
yesterday me and caitie adventured into the village
and oh what an adventure it was
so we take the subway after school and it only took about 8743 minutes because this time there wasn't a sick customer
lucky for us
anyway we start walking to tina tang and on the way there some random passerbyman commented on my lovely deisel calves which looked ohsosexy in my stanner skirt
and that just made me feel wondrous about myself
so we get to tina tang and we buy kate a dandy katelike necklace
and then we go in lots of awesome thrift shops and i see all these gnarly blazers and track jackets and plaid hats and i get morbidly depressed because i have no money to buy stuff and my grandparents have way cooler clothes than me and im jealous
but that was ok because we plan to go to the mall today and buy some blazers and rubber boots and leg warmers and frankiethefrosh gloves
and im sure my madre will give me some money
because we have such a great relationship with each other
"no sarah i take you shopping all the time and you never find anything and you waste money all the time like that dress you bought that you never even wore yet..."
well you know...sometimes its good to have a dress in case theres a party that you would never get invited to because you only have 1 friend
"well if you're getting to big to fit in your old dresses that should tell you something and you should start exercising and not eating so much..."
ok
yeah so im guessing that my fun mall plan might just be off
thats ok though back to the city
so we are headed home and, of course, it wouldn't be a real trip to the city without a token drunk guy on the subway
so over he comes and informs me very loudly that whoever cut my hair messed up
"look at it, it goes up and down and it ain't even"
little did i know that this would be the beginning of a beautiful relationship
when i tried to explain that i wanted it like this, he informed me that i did it because all my guy friends told me to and if they told me to jump off a bridge then i would do that too
and i was like "no...but coincidentally i do often get the urge to jump off a bridge when im hanging out with my guy friends"
so he was about 34i% right
then he asked how old we were and got quite mad when i said i was 14 and started asking everyone on the subway if they believed that
which no one did
then i rememebered that oops im 15 and that caused even more controversy
so basically through the rest of the journey he came to the conclusion that caitie is smart because she ties her hair up and i am a blunder and i take advantage of my family
its great that even random drunk people tell me how stupid i am
all in all i think it was a extremely valuable trip in terms of my self-esteem
anyway...yeah
my daddy might take me to see the allman brothers band
even though he often doesnt like me too much
so that should be fun
i wonder how many random people at that show will tell me how uglystupidbigandfat i am
that will be interesting to see and ill be sure to update you on that one
my hair has so many split ends i bet it could entertain me all day |
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| self esteem |
[Jan. 22nd, 2004|09:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | pessimistic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | early noevember-everything's too cold...but you're so hot | ] |
ok i think jacki has started a trend with the whole falling-down-in-your-room-for-no-apparent-reason-and-hurting-your-ankle thing
because i just totally did the same thing
but its ok b.c it doesnt really hurt and its not all swollen like poor jacki's
not that i could tell if it was swollen with my huge deisel calves and all
its wonderful to know what people say about me in the privacy of their chem classes
other than that i had a lovely day
i fought with my mom 2.5 times and she only talked to me about calories twice and i only heard the word fat twice
and i only got told i was stupid a few times and ms. young wasn't really making fun of my iq in math
she was talking about the problem
so thats good too
today was certainly a selfesteemuplifting day for me
anyway im going to the city tomorrow and i might actually really go this time
just for a change of pace
yeah ok thats about it
i have cooler cankles than all of you |
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| my journey home |
[Jan. 20th, 2004|04:03 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cold | ] |
| [ | music |
| | straylight run-existentialism on prom night | ] |
ok so yeah everyone has a livejournal so i decided to just jump on that bandwagon
anyway heres my story today
im going home from school but all the trains are screwed up b.c they always have to be mean to me
so when i finally found my train it takes like 827398 minutes longer than its supposed to
and i get out and its so windy and freezing but im like thats ok im going home now to my family which is always so great and worth the trip
so im trying to walk home and i cant b.c there is ice everywhere like the whole street and sidewalk and everything b.c i guess in malverne we just dont put down salt when its -82374 degrees out
i mean come on
even jamaica does that
so i walk all tip-toey like an idiot until i get to my house and all the stupid armaniexchange people are staring at me like why do you walk funny
and im just so pissed off and i cant wait to get inside b.c theres no one home
which is rare but good
and i go to the door and i remember how i had the brilliant idea last night to switch wallets but i never bothered to switch my key to the new wallet
and im like thats ok ill get a key from the neighbor
so i go over to their house and i try to walk up their path instead of being rude and walking on their lawn
but of course the path is on a hill and its all ice so i keep sliding back down like when i went sledding
so i get to their door and they arent home
but thats ok too
so i go like skiing down their stupid path and fall like 2837 times
and i get back to my house and i call my mom since she is always willing to help
"you're out of luck sarah im at cub scouts bye"
also ok b.c i am a smart cookie
so i find this open window and i totally dive through it in my little skirt and everything and i manage to scrape my knee without even ruining my stockings
which i am so proud of
anyway its good to be home
ESPECIALLY SINCE THE RESTAURANT HAS MY HAT
ok im gonna go think about my hat now
have a better day than me |
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